Ava Adore

I have no fancy news to share or stories to tell,
But i was hoping you would find a reason to dwell.
You can have the nicest corner of the room,
and watch me struggle to make you smile.
It might seem meaningless at first but,
It shall be my goal to make it all worth while.

The food is sort of cold and the wine is cheap,
Possibility of the menu changing much is also pretty bleak.
I found not many options to explain the reason,
The pressure of performance is too much this season.
Don't find me guilty for the unkempt hair,
I feel the mirror is just a portal to my treason.

New Divide

You shall need to have to have faith in Darwin and Hugo de Vries theory of evolution to understand the argument below.
The idea of the optimal cycles of adversity is essential for an ideal development and evolution as the selection and accumulation of genetic diversity better happen when each is individually enforced.
The bird who made its nest on the highest branch was more successful on conveying its progeny. The height had to be optimal to be away from predators but not too unstable in the wind, its progeny were further selected for smartness not to go back on the lower branches. But the new talent was not physical but a group of simple smartness and logics, as to know where to nest, choosing the right tree and branch. How exactly to place the egg in the nest so that it is warmest and does not fall prey to animals and gravity. Hence not very difficult to imagine that the female intelligence is the guiding principle of intellectual development, it was the female who was responsible for choosing the right male to mate with. Her choice here was critical for feeding of the newborns and security from the other animals and building the best nest. The physical development though better seen in males as the site of expression is selected by females.
Not just in macroscopic scale but the ability of one sperm to enter the ova where thousands are around, again the female system chooses one. Contrary to popular opinion this is not first come first serve. Many woman are known to have an statistically significant difference in number of male or female offsprings; this can be explained by the ova selection where probably the pellucida has an ability to prefer a sect of sperms. and also explains the possible reason why despite a significant difference in Male chromatin, the Y sperms are not exactly able to make the best of the lighter weight.
This indicates that the male intelligence is just a genetic trait it shares with the females, merely as a carries of information. True selection works in the female mind and body.

ONE

One of the primary concerns in a person's life is to find out the Primary concern itself.
Everything else and figuratively speaking 99.999% of stuff that you talk about or do is directed to hide from the above question. The primary reason for such entropy in personal choices is due to a higher regard to other's opinion rather than ourselves.
I believe that the main reason why people tend to rely on a fellow mortals opinion is because people like to have any thing other than oneself to blame incase something goes wrong. Kind of a playing safe attitude. One key reason why a person repeatedly fails to reach a reasonably working idea is because they have an urge to fight the problem but not with intentions to reach a concrete conclusion.
People believe that showing resentment is good enough. But we all know that no one care's what you think about a 'situation' people only care what you think about them; I would really like to see a person making friends based on a person's ideas rather than their affinity to self. The idea is to be "friends to a person who has no interest in you". A situation that is visible in organisation of Religion, politics or the lesser controversial ' Celebrity Fan Clubs'. The respect and Love in these situations is unidirectional in nature.
I would regard that as one of the pathognomic sign of a non-pragmatic thinking and deriving a conclusion for an action rather than an option for conversation. The act of complimenting the society should supervine rather simulate substance(people included).
The end outcome is dependent on the way the support system is considered liable to blame if and when the harnesses fail.

Come Undone

I have for long held a thought that lingers around the concept of familiarity and people's urge to live in a familiar environment. The idea keeps people in a cocoon of safety while the person enjoys the freedom from the window of the imaginary closet
Even though everyone likes freedom he/she always likes to be under some control that provides a reassurance of safety and incites confidence to freely and fearlessly observe the rest of the world.
Thus a calculated amount of freedom is sacrificed to gain freedom to relish the space leftover. An optimistic human mind is smart enough to appreciate the better end of the deal. Its not actually about the better deal rather its about the more acceptable preposition. The above proposal is framed in purely business fashion and hence works better in business minded people where the person's ability to subconsciously organise choices in an order of priority is better set at default.
The other end of the spectrum is the person who abstains from such pragmatism in day to day decision making. Though beyond doubt the person with former thought process makes a better civilised human than the latter the former is lesser likely to acquire a moral compliment.

Take away my pain

What all doesn't kill you keeps making you stronger, untill it eventually does. Thats just after you reach the maximum strength that you were destined to achieve.
The Idea of strength physical and mental is often interpreted reciprocally in either formats. People should have a better way to look into the two aspects of strength.
Any real trouble shall always leave a scar and unless very special measures are taken the site shall be weaker than rest. So even though the host is better prepaerd for similar situation in future, the so called strength gained is in 'couping and avoiding from the harm' and not in lessening the actual damage.
Considering the idea of mental/moral strength accumulated over periods of such physical and emotional trauma, the idea almost always learnt is in the better uses of previously unappreciated defence mechanisms. No real physical or moral strength is gained but the mind only develops better and more applicable defence mechanisms.
The main thought i wish to convey here is that the "experienced life" is mainly a body full of scars and scabs with a mind full of trial tested ways to better ignore the pain. Troubles don't make any thing better they only help remove the unnecessary and lesser essentials.

Save Tonight

Here is a small list of quotes from movies which i find really special.

1-Rambo(First Blood)
Nothing is over..nothing, you just don't turn it off.
Rambo II
I want.....over country to love us as much as we love it.
Rambo III

God must love crazy people.... He makes so many of them.

Rambo IV
When you are pushed..killing is as easy as breathing.

2-Rocky IV
If i can change and you can change.....everybody can change.
Rocky VI
Life is not about how much you hit, its how much you can take and keep moving forward.
There is nothing special in cooking of Italian food by a bunch of Mexicans.

3-Terminator (Judgement Day)
If a machine called Terminator, can learn the value of human life , maybe we can too.
Terminator (Salvation)
Humans have a strength that can not be measured.
If we behave like machines then, what's the point in winning.

4-Spiderman
With great power comes great responsibility.

5-Over the top
Life meets no-one half way.

6-Teenage mutant ninja turtles (I)
All fathers care for their sons.

7-City of angels
I don't know what a Pear tastes like, to you.

9-Fight club
How much can you know about yourself if you have never been in a fight.
When you are dieing people really listen to you; instead of waiting for their turn to speak.
The things you own end up owning you.

10- The bucket list
Nobody cares what you think.

11 - Million Dollar Baby
Girly tough aint enough

12-The Dark Knight
You see, their morals, their code, it's a bad joke. Dropped at the first sign of trouble.
They're only as good as the world allows them to be. I'll show you. When the chips are down, these... these civilized people, they'll eat each other.
See, I'm not a monster. I'm just ahead of the curve.
I'm a dog chasing cars I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it.
Why don't we cut you up into little pieces and feed you to your pooches, hmm? And then we'll see how loyal a hungry dog really is.

Leave me alone...

Its wise to learn from mistakes but its not necessary to do mistakes for learning.

Man who does not make mistakes makes nothing.

Be friendly with time, because you can't ever make friends with it.

People who talk too much shall often run out of things to speak.

The more questions you ask , the more shall you be lied at.

Hyperactivity is the pathognomic feature of an unfocused mind.

If you do not try to solve the problem you too become a part of the problem.

Everything in life is easy, but it itself is tough.

Like Earth ; no one belongs to a zoo.

Life rocks' as long as you are watching the M-TV and not the guy sleeping on the street.

IF it's not up in the dictionary it is 'SPECIAL' , If it is up there it is 'STALE'.

Hitler loved his wife and children, this no way makes him a nice person.

The amount of sadness in a person's life is inversely proportional to the 'gap' between the self expectaions and his performance.

Experience is an excuse that the people use to work without any skill or talent.

If you are not paid to be crazy, you'll be locked up.

For the restless

I think I think but others too have much to announce,
the idea is to find the right words to pronounce.
people really don't care what i make of them,
maybe because of the invisible exanthem.Today was the last time i made up my mind,
a convincing way to ignore the next thing i find.

The cubes of ice are warming up the gin,

My fear of deception makes my heart sink.
from a short list things i allow myself to drink;
Another unhealthy defense mechanism I came up with.
"Addictions being bad" is planet's most popular myth,
overtaken only by god, equality and power of truth.

Living with my primary idea shall always be a regret,
One of many things the world doesn't let me forget.
I had some opinions about life but not anymore,
People in this planet keep treating me like a whore;
And the god embarrasses me every time she can,To reciprocate equally is now my working plan.

The Shame of Life

Light is one thing that people use to stay from the darkness. This is probably the only purpose of light and it should not be given more importance than that.
In a civilised world the followers of Radio and TV commonly recognise the former as a sign of health and happiness.
I feel that this opinion is seriously biased by people's urge to watch and be watched.
Its the fear/discomfort in darkness that drives people towards light not the contrary as commonly accepted. the only other possibility is that the security and reassurance provided by the light is considered more important than the freedom provided by the darkness. At the end its the choice a person makes regarding the thing he considers to be more important.
The only role of light in a human brain is to provide a visual perception define the circadian rhythm. Everything Else associated with it is a popular mass cultural delusion that guides others to recognise sun light as a excuse for a positivity of mood and probably an excuse for decreased positivity if not negativity. I am pretty sure if the expression is neurochemically primary in origin there must be a homologous behavior in lower animal too.
Its not hard to appreciate a population to be specially positive on a sunny day and depressed in a cloudy as a fluctuation that is amplified to pathological degree and ending up as Cyclical Dysthymia which is a neurotic condition not psychosis. This behaviour can be easily explained by a much more psychological explanation. Had this been primary in origin the altered neurochemical state must have been psychotic in nature.
People get exceptional pleasure from seeing and watching and being watched : this is the basic cause that leads to popular convention of "Hanging out" and "going out". Being a resident of Chicago its not hard to appreciate this spirit that jumps up for 4-5 mths of summer and pretty much remains dormant the year round.
Light doesn't impress people but it provides the person with an option to dress well , smile speak good and bee "SEEN" doing all that ,
To be very frank most immature people don't watch others either, they are just displaying themselves and looking for ideas to try out during future opportunities.
Finally I would like to end with a conclusion that an expressive and communicative person shall like a bright day more often and vice-verse for a introvert, as a paucity of illumination provides him/her with a reassurance that he is safe and alienated from people's opinion

Day is done

I was sad all the while, and people didn't care,
I smiled this other time and everyone was there.
I died each night when I tried to make through the day,
With a weight on my tongue I opened my mouth to say.
But the only one to listen was the bloody cigarette.

I sat one day to write down some stuff,
but the music wasn't what it ought to be.
probably it was too smart to catch my bluff,
Inertia of the blank page, my thoughts couldn't fight,
The only one to read was the sadistic cigarette.

I asked God once long ago for a share of a friend's pain,
Little did i know that he would never stop the rain.
Its been a decade since that unfortunate preposition,
All I wanted, even back then was a wise communication.

I tried hard to hide in my version of salvation.
Ended up with a cigarette in hand & a mind full of its Infatuation.

The Pursuit for pleasure wasn't my joke.
Safe in my castle's walls, I choose to be broke.
Afraid I'll make nothing more than a mistake.
Thinking of the reasons for my precious uncongeniality.
Nothing standsout more than my addiction prone personality.
I won every argument but lost all the bets.
Just another thing I realised; in company of my cigarettes.